Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Shook It Up
It's Christmas time...Chanukah time...Kwanzaa time...do any of you feel it?
What makes us "feel" it? Is it giving? Is it receiving? Is it the music or the lights?
This is the first year in my life when it's as late as December 19th and I still don't feel the Christmas Spirit. And I sent 52 Christmas cards this year!
For the most part my shopping is done and my Holiday parties are all, but over.
When does that automatic happiness set in?
As someone who deals with depression, I COUNT on the SPECIAL moments in life to give me that natural serotonin to get me through. But it has yet to come.
I've debated ending this journal for months, but sometimes it feels like it's the only CONSISTENT friend I have...
I'll be back in 2007.
And because I'm never a man that believes in total defeat, I have HIGH hopes and BIG GOALS to shoot for in the New Year.
You watch. Shit's about to change.
It has to.
Or I officially give up.
But that should be an idle threat. I'm about to enter a phase where I love myself again. I'm about to enter a phase that allows me to believe in myself. I remember that old Joe, and now more than ever, I need him back.
Do YOU need to feel that way again too?
Let's do it. Let's honestly, just do it.
A new year.
A new US.
